what a night. my boys came over for a bbq it was great to see them but i felt a bit disconnected . they've always been my "girls" seeing how i don't know many women and they can't keep girlfriends long enough for me to make friends with unfortunately it felt a bit strained. after a couple of 50's in the can (we were really classy last night) things were good until i realized that Big Brother was on for 2 hours! that show just isn't my thing i had to hold back from making really obnoxious comments ....
the entire night my head was throbbing, like a vice was being tightened around it i tried to self medicate with assorted drug's but i still work up with a head ache...
everyday this week when i get to work i'm privileged enough to hear my co workers daily update on her wedding next year. good for her but i'm really getting tired of all the pictures of dresses and talking about her gift registry, it all so sounds so foreign. maybe its because the idea of marriage, the INSTITUTION of marriage is intimating to me......

OK that's it, i've been here 31 mins now i better get to work.

aRAmat