ahhh..i feel so tired and look like shit today. i'm hoping all of this is still my dream and i'm really sleeping.
starting out this nightmare i was making coffee and rubbed my eyes, they started to immediately burn like
they were being pulled out. i guess i touched something that still had hot pepper on it from our dinner last night.
ouch! so that really alerted me to the fact that i was no longer sleeping, that and the car that nearly took me out
on the way here. man i can really swear! i think i made this guy on his bike blush..
i also had dreams about melanie.
i hate when i dream about her. it just doesn't leave a nice feeling in me afterwards, like when she was my roommate, especially at the end of it all. i have no idea why i would be dreaming about someone i have no contact with and that i haven't seen in years. ?

oww... our hot and spicy dinner is still lingering in my eyes. phred cooked which was great and stayed home with me last night, the first night all week which was much appreciated..... ;)
i don't think he's coming dancing with me tonight though, i'll work on nev at lunch today.
speaking of nev he calls me last night and left a very serious sounding message to call him later, that he needed to speak to me.
now that we work together that kind of stuff freaks me out. when i got a hold of him he asked me out to lunch today!
he said he feels like we don't get to talk enough and thought it would be nice to spend sometime together with his friend!
i love when my boys surprise me like that. a little reminder of why i love them so much!
i felt all fuzzy after that.
phred thinks he'll forget and dice role on me.
he thought he was just calling last night looking to pick up.
thanks phred.

anyway i'm tired and i need some more sleep.
i need to speak to my sista who i haven't talked to in about a week!
she was playin all too cool for skool and hanging out with her new boy in Kingston but according to my mum is back in TO and went to class.


FOund out my aunty P is here for a visit.
My mum said to prepare myself, her MS has progressed and she needs a lot of help now.
i could hear how upset my mum was telling me on the phone, fuck this is her little sister it must be terrible for all of them.
well when i get home i'll smk her a huge dube and we'll have a nice chat.

i've been here an hour and done absolutely nothing but write this blog and respond to emails. where the hell is my cube mate?
i hope he quit.
i'm such a bitch..

well this bitch is looking forward to going out tonight even if i have to solicit a date from work. i'm gonna get all sassy pants and dance dance dance!
although yesterday online 2 little boys from xvi asked me out - so cute.

ah! he's here.
later.

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