3:16 pm

i got out of bed this
morning after hours
of sleep deprived
thoughts &
i had sexy office boy's
name in my head.
*sigh*

i wrote a test today that if i
pass may qualify me for a
boring, inane government
office job.
phred just left for his, i guess
making $20 an hour
makes it better.

i absolutely have to get a job
ASAP. i want to avoid the money
argument that inevitably will pop
up soon. i've been successful so far
in diverting conversations or
avoiding them all together that may
lead down the path to money.
but the landlord called for the rent today,
its 3 days late, i'll take it down tomorrow
but my half maybe a little short.
oh well.

now that i'm home sexy office boy
and i have been flirting a bit electronically
again. it can't replace the excitement of
walking past him knowing that he's watching,
or pressing up against him the elevator.
*sigh* i miss the elevator rides!
besides missing the physical heat
that i still feel, after my last day at
work, well that last night out for drinks
the heat just increased for me.
the desire to have more of him,
not just the tease of a quick stolen
moment.
and his company, it was fun to run away
together at lunch, sit in a food court
full of people and see only each other.
telling him how i wanted him to fuck me.
*sigh*
enough! i'm still to tired to make
much sense. i'm fearful of
non coherent ramblings that will
make me look like a horny crazy
lady.

Aramat * is tired now*