3:34 pm

i just want to scream outloud.
i want to scream at the assholes who ripped down my balcony with
no notice.
i want to scream at those who put words in my mouth and those
who assume what i'm feeling.
i really really hate that. ask me what i'm feeling, don't guess.
i'm really at my wits end with phred today. he's got a huge HATE
going for absolutely everything in our lives, which doesn't make me feel
especially good. i can't voice any of this because then he'll be mad at me
for making this about ME. which i'm not, i just don't see the point in
bitching about certain things anymore especially things about our apartment.
we've made the decision to move, were looking at houses so why
keep complaining about this place?
it seem like all the men in my life either just want to fuck me or
want nothing to do with me anymore, that's just how it feels lately.
agh!
OK, there's my scream and my rant.
feeling a little better.
araMat