8:52 am

tired and a bit cranky.
since phred and i have been back from the wedding he's been really short tempered with me. last night i felt like i was having conversations with myself. its like he's shutting me out.
the wedding was beautiful. i was successful in navigating around in stiletto heels for the entire night! when phred saw me in my dress he said that later i had to take everything off but the shoes, unfortunately there was none of that during the weekend seeing how our "deluxe" cabin turned out to be the rustic version. we shared it with his younger brother and his girlfriend who we graciously gave the bedroom too and we suffered on the pull out couch. the one good thing about it was that every night, actually more like early morning when it was time to pass out i left the window open so when i awoke the first thing i saw was the water. we were right on the lake, absolutely beautiful.
phred made up lyrics to the Grateful Dead, friend of the devil which marco sang as their speech. it was amazing, his parents had no idea that he could play guitar that well he really surprised them.

while i was away i have to admit that sexy office boy often was on my mind. he slips in and out leaving me giddy with my own dirty day dreams about him..... *sigh*
yesterday we kissed in the elevator,
i felt this tongue flicker inside my mouth
tease my lips with its soft caresses
*SIGH*
i want him.
i want him just like he's written me in the notes we exchange and every other way possible.
i've never felt this consumed by an instant attraction towards anyone before. often i'll find other people attractive but sexy office boy completely disarms me, i can barely sit still around him but somehow find the confidence to tell him everything, well almost everything i'd like to do with him, do to him ect.....
*sigh*

aRamat *anxiously awaits the devil*