2:44 pm

i feel like i'm waiting for the
other shoe to fall, as they say.
and when it does all the
caked on crap that's attached
to the bottom will fall and stink
up the place leaving a lingering
stank to remind me of the mess
i'm in.

i think my bout with insomnia
may be over, i went to bed around
1:30 this morning and didn't wake up
till 9 am. much better.

the unavoidable money talk
took place today.
dam i'm a lucky grrl.
phred and i had an
honest talk about the situation
but he didn't leave me feeling
guilty about it. i feel kind of useless
right now. i always take care of myself
financially. NEVER
have i ever depended
on a
boyfriend to support me.
the enduring cynic in me
always makes sure i have
enough money to at a moments
notice to
be able to take off
and support myself
if need be.
i've got to build my
safety back up.

aRamat