8:47 am

well its the last day of 2002 and i woke up to
phred yelling "fuck! fuck! fuck!" in the kitchen.
i forgot to put the coffee on last night.......
woops.
i got up and did it only to realize that the
right side of my nose was achy. i take a look in the
mirror and my nose ring was hanging out pressed into
the side of my nose.
its red and sore now.
good thing i don't have any plans i'd look like Rudolph tonight.
our tickets didn't get held for us so we are without a venue
to celebrate the new year.
fuck! fuck! fuck!
i wanted a nice day all i want to do now is scream and
start over!
i hate how the moods of your significant other
can filter through the atmosphere and strike you
down, or in the best case scenario lift you up.
this morning was definitely the later.

so i guess this will be my last entry of the year.
should i be reflecting on my accomplishments or
analyzing my defeats?
i'll just leave it at that.

i'm happy to back in ottawa,
i don't have my mother breathing down
my neck and i don't have to see my dad
pounding back the beers.
that was the most disappointing part of christmas.
i thought he was supposed to be cutting down on the
alcohol.
my little sista was my light as usual despite
her manic mood over the holiday. it was amazing
to spend so much time with her.

well i better start the laundry.

araMat