9:47 am

i can barely hear my fingers hitting the keyboard
over the incessant wood cutting going on outside
since 7 am this morning.
this neighborhood is just a mess with construction.

i couldn't bring myself to tell my mother last night
when we were speaking that i was laid off. she knows its
coming but doesn't really understand how it works.
her unshakable belief that her daughter can wow anyone
has lead her to think that my job would be made permanent.
no matter what i told her she refuses to believe that they would
let me go. i didn't feel like battling so i didn't mention it.
i'm sure i'll have to mention it friday when phred's parents get here.
i am not looking forward to spending time with his father, that sounds
awful but its true. i always feel like i'm defending myself.
phred has come to my rescue many times which just makes things
more uncomfortable. they have already asked us to make reservations
at that swankiest meat filled french restaurant in the area, looks like
i'll be eating salad all weekend. me not eating meat is just another
thing he can poke fun at.
ahhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!! i want to go anywhere but here! the noise is just insane!
i can feel the apartment vibrating! how can phred sleep through this?

aramAt