12:40 pm
i used to think my independence was one of my
best qualities. now its just making me lonely.
i thought i didn't need the companionship of "best friends"
but i've come to realize i do.
phred has always been my "best friend" but really
i know that he can't be that in its truest sense anyway.
i've become jealous of those people who call their friends
everyday, those who have immediate company with a phone call.
my boys and i have become estranged in that sense unless i take up
fishing.
even my make out girl friend Joanne is busy these days with her
wedding plans...
my grrls are far away and the connections i fear are fading.
they don't get me and i don't get them.
well,
i'm off to sell my stuff at a craft fair this afternoon.
my apologies for my sucky rant.

araMat