4:13 am

i'm sitting in my parents house not able to sleep.
slightly drunk from tonights celebrations with my sisters friends.
i sat in a smokey bar watching her talk with her friends, laughing and having fun
i suddenly felt far removed from it, like i was watching her on TV.
i get that feeling sometimes when i'm at home.
my back hurts from this awful bed they have in old room i haven't slept well
since i arrived. shortly after i wake up tomorrow it will be time to leave and i'll
soon be back in my own bed. soon back into my life,
myself.

araMAT *feeling not myself*