8:03am

had some mildly disturbing
dreams that i think may
have had something to do with
the flasher i encountered
on the street last night.
bastard...

i have a work thing to attended tonight
that i completely forgot about.
i may be going through some sort
of brain lapse. in that movie
with tom hanks an old movie,
Joe's Volcano or something like
that, the doctors told him he had
a brain cloud. that's what
happening to me.
things are slipping right out of my
mind with only remnants remaining.
like how my place is littered with
remnants of Monica and Laz.
i could make a little dog with
the amount of hair that beautiful
bitch shed all over the place!

i was thinking last night
that i've really neglected my journal
writing and not just this new found
undetermined online journal.
MY journal that's hidden in the
apartment wrapped in duct tape
as a protective seal so one can
easily invade it.
i was finally at a place where
everything, the good, the bad
the sexy and the fucked up
were flowing out of me with
complete honesty and brutal
truths.. one of my favorite kinds of truth..
brutal.
then phred read it and didn't like what
he saw, so i stopped. actually before i did that
i started to edit what i wrote which
tore at me with every sentence
i put on paper like someone
was actually ripping them out of me.
all written for the benefit of others
who may or may not have
invaded.

8:55am
just had a nice co worker
visit.
i touched his belly button. heh heh...

better get to work before i find
myself on some sort of tangent
about my journal writing, or the lack
of it.

i have more to write that i
must get out soon. cube mate has
arrived and his eagle eyes are
wandering...
later..

aRamat the confident