8:51 am
agh! already the dam beeping of the door is on my nerves. east coast woman asking if i found a new job yet, her naiveté is her excuse for lack of tact so i don't hold it against her, but some mornings i just want to tell her to go away. its not even 9 am and i want to run away from here, and of course grab sexy office boy on the way!
i really am in the wrong place. i shouldn't be here at all. i am happy that circumstance has brought me here i've had many pleasant surprises working for the government most of them i could have done without. but i guess you can't pick and choose your destiny if that's what you subscribe too. at times i'm torn between that i control everything in my life or that i'm just fulfilling a predetermined destiny.... and if it is predetermined, who determined it?
agh! oh i'm not awake enough to engage in a weak philosophical debate...

aRamat *hallucinates*