writing in my blog has become a challenge.
at work with my back to all the office traffic i have to switch back and forth between screens so it appears i'm working. which i am but 5 mins here and there to record my random thoughts is not only necessary for my mental health but probably makes me a better worker. at home i have limited time since i want to keep this blog to myself, not that i'm actively hiding it from phred or anyone for that matter i just like having something that is mine and mine alone. with no need to explain or rationalize my motives or ideas to anyone. now that would be authentic living wouldn't it? not ever having to rationalize or explain to anyone! i long/strive for that and my own personal truths so that i may never have to or feel the need to explain myself to others. wishful thinking? perhaps...
this morning is going by excruciatingly slow.

arAmat *needs stimuli*