2:44 pm

last night when
phred and i were
fucking i felt that
he was somewhat disconnected
from what we were doing.
that he was just going through the
motions.
he always tells me how sexy he
thinks i am but last night
i didn't feel it from him.
i felt like i was just
a body that was there
and that's it.
at one point i looked
back and i swear he
was more engrossed
with the television than
me.
i didn't feel like confronting him
with how i felt afterwards
so i just closed my eyes
and went to sleep.
today phred went on and
on how great last night was
and was visibly upset that
i didn't reinforce his feelings
about it. he felt great he always
does its not that, he just wasn't
there with me in my excitement
it was like i was fucking someone
else mentally.
i don't know maybe he
was tired?
maybe he's bored with
me sexually.

araMat