12:13 pm

i'm on the cusp on constant panic
lately and i'm at the point of wanting
to just give up. that not being an option
im struggling to find a way to live in this
state of panic and anxiety.
i'm smoking way too much, not eating
or sleeping enough lately and now i'm
guilty of pushing away my friends.
i feel like hiding. or even better
running away.

on monday i have a third interview with
a company i have desire to work for
but regardless of my desires i'll go in
there and do my best to get the job.

*SIGH*


araMat