10:47 am

i don't feel much like writing today.
not yet anyway...
my phred worked his first awful shift till 2am this
morning, i barely remember him taking me to bed.
he had sent me emails from work that were very
sweet. almost over done with emotion. i took them
to be sincere but apart of me was caught off guard at
his tone and choice of words.
i spent the night meticulously beading
more denim arm cuffs. i have so many now!
i still need more if i plan on attending any craft
sales. i need funding to really get going.

phred has come up with an idea to get me out
of debt that kind of frightens me.
he has money, lots of it too. his parents made
investments for all of them as kids and phred's now is
very sizable. his proposal is that he pays my debt in
full and i repay him. then according to him i wouldn't
have any trouble getting a small business loan
to start my endeavors. i have severe reservations about this.
it would be great to get those student loan bitches off my
back but i worry if it would change the dynamics of our relationship.
i only recently found out that phred had money independently from his
parents. when we bought the car from his mom that's when i found out.
maybe i have no reason to worry but my instinct tells me not to
take the money.
anyway i should get back to the hunt........

araMat