11:49 am

John's dead.
that's what i hear over and over in my head.
since the funeral things haven't got any better for anyone.
over 650 people attended his funeral with his awesome yellow camero leading the way.
when he was put into the herse his friends reved the car while we all stood there crying.
i did my reading at the funeral just fine. as i passed John in the casket on the way i could
feel him there. we all felt him.
fuck!
i'm still in shock and i'm not sure how any of us will be able to continue without John.
i miss my family.
want to go home to be with them.
i don't know what else to write, its taken me ages just to log in again to blogger.
writing about John dosen't help or make it easier.
the family is still waiting on the autopsy report and accident report. there maybe in inqueriy as well.
John's wife wants to know why it took over 8 hours to notify her. well all want to know what the fuck
happened.
i love you JOhn.

araMat