11:18am

slow day at work.. gotta love the government..
well working for them anyway.. except this morning when i
opened my desk i found a pile of mouse shit! lovely way to start the day.

i woke up this morning thinking about John. its been over a year now since
he died. everything is different. happy moments are always followed with
a moment of relfection. especially if its something I know John would like..
for example.. on the weekend we went to see Star Wars. John was the ultimate
fan! when we were children he was always Luke Skywalker and i was Princess Lea
for halloween. he had all the toys and was so excited to take his children to the movies...
ahhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!! i just want to scream sometimes,
and i do.
i find myself crying without knowing when i started, the heavy feeling of sadness
is just so overwhelming.

Aramat