9:16 am

i'm not sure why
but today my
thoughts and feelings
are caught.
like their stuck
in my throat refusing
to be verbalized.
everything is now gathering
and piling up on the tip
of my tongue threatening
to be heard but can't.
i can't today.
holding everything in
against my own will is
causing a small headache..
even though i feel i'm on the
cusp of shouting out loud
i find i can't communicate
anything effectively so far
today.

my beautiful
sista, my sweet soul sista
turns 23 tomorrow.

aRaMat * has lost her voice*