12:00 am
i waited in line for over an hour today to hand in forms to the
government for a position i applied for months ago.
at least 300 hundred people were there and i was
stuck next to this lady who wouldn't shut up about
what a waste of time this was. blah blah blah.... on and on
she went complaining about how she had to be somewhere else.
fuck this! and fuck that! was coming out her mouth...
i'm not sure why i let this bother me so much but i all i wanted to do was
smack her fat face shut. i turned to her and said i would be happy to
hand in her forms if she had to be somewhere else. looking at me
very strangely she ask why and at the risk of being attacked by
this obnoxious stranger i told her the truth. that i'd hand them in so i wouldn't have to listen to her anymore.
she just stared at me so i turned
around half expecting to feel her hand across the back of my head.
she just looked liked one of those ladies, a scrappy tough worn out
40 something that smokes too much and blames everyone else for her
troubles. yeah i'm generalizing but who the fuck cares?

agh! what to do till its time to pick up phred?! he gets off
work at 2am. i'm all beaded out for the night
its too late to call friends now,
i feel like yelling really loud till someone
comes to investigate...
hmmm that would be bad i guess...
i'd smk another dube but getting high alone
too much makes me feel like i'm self medicating......

arAmat