5:18 pm

falling into a pit of self loathing.
i'm sure its temporary but i'm not liking myself these
past couple of days.
feeling like a real loser.
my attempts so far of fighting off this depression have worked
only sporadically
today being one of the days its not working...
my prescription has been to work out like mad, make lots of jewelry
and look for work. the latter being the most important and the most
depressing at the same time. to be completely honest i don't ever
want to work in any office again. there is no scenario that i can think of that
i see myself working in an office and being happy. not jump up and down happy
but content at least. unfortunately to get to the place i want to be i need to
work for someone else.... i need money to fund my plans.
anyway
i better start scraping the ice off the car.

araMAt *is blue*