8:20 am

well after dropping really subtle hints to phred about feeling
depressed i finally said something outright in the car this morning.
i was extremely nonchalant but i'm sure he understood what i was saying.
sometimes i get like that, i can be really direct about certain things
but obviously not about this. phred is aware i'm sure that i haven't exactly been myself but then again i haven't been acting all that out of character in front of him. i always seem to be able to put on a happy face when he's around. anyway now i'm just worried that my doctor might not hear what i'm saying. i'm a little nervous but anxious at the same to time to finally do something about this.
i just want to feel better.


aramaT