4:28 pm

*sigh*
sexy office boys voice traveled through the
phone wires and directly into my pants!
mmmmm.....

so tired today, i was up too late not getting
fucked by my boyfriend.
i need to get laid.
besides the not having sex
part things are good with phred i just need
some cock and soon!
i think that's why i feel so tense and can't sleep well?

araMat * the horny!*

6:13 pm

today at work in the elevator i had a flash back of
sexy office boy and our quick heated exchanges
that left me charged from head to toe.
i miss that excitement that only he provided.
i miss his eyes, the way they reached deep down
into me telling me that he's thinking the same things.
the things we only briefly explored
the things i still fantasize about.
sexy office boy i miss you!!!!!

aRamat

2:54 pm

i'm at home sick. i feel like shit.
phred just left for work, he finds out
tomorrow if his contract is being extended.
i hate the pressure he's feeling and the uncertainty
he has to work under. its not fair, but so is the
life of a contract government worker.....

i have so much to write about but my
energy is limited. my weekend with my ladies
was full of fun and fights with meaghan.
saturday night i told her to stop talking
about our first year in university. for one, it
was 7 years ago and second that wasn't such
a good year for me, and to hear her go on and on
about all the fun she had the year i was raped isn't much fun for me.
i must be tired i actually wrote that word with little anxiety.
anyway i feel our friendship is completely one sided. its awful of me
to say but i don't feel a connection with her anymore.
i'm to tired to continue this right now.
gotta nap.

hello sexy office boy! i miss you!

aramaT

4:38pm

i think i have sars.
no i don't i'm just really sick. i was sent home from
work to be subjected to the fat bitches music upstairs.
i will fight her.
i am going to scream.
i need some one to take care of me.

araMat
*is lonely*

happy birthday to me!
and my cousin jacob
my auntie carol
my friend meaghan
and my hair dresser Eli!

arAmat *is 29!*

10:42 pm

i'm just sitting here
blank
staring at my screen and nothing will come out.
i'm trying really. these last few minutes i have
till i go to fetch phred and i can't seem to purge
myself of my any feelings.
feeling slightly wound up despite the fact that
i just made myself cum 3 times. you'd think
i'd feel more relaxed?
agh!
soon i'll quietly slip into another year of my
life.
i better come home too a fridge full
of beer and chocolate cake tomorrow.
that would be nice.

araMat
s.o.B
*sigh*

5:23 pm

oh my blog how i've missed you!
i've been writing in my old journal but its not the same,
but will have to do until i'm able to blog daily.

i had lots of fun with the family when i went home, except i was
right about my dad. he avoided any conversations that had to do
with his drinking. according to my mum he hasn't in about a week.
as i pulled up to the house i saw his truck and the front bumper
was all smashed in, i asked him what happened he said he found it
like that after work one day... both my mum and me don't really
believe him, as much as i'd like too it happened st.Patrick's day
when he was out on a bender.
besides that we had a wonderful time, i even went down to T.O to see
my sista's place on friday night. so cute!
my parents spoiled me for my birthday, which is actually on the 17th but we
celebrated while i was home. they gave me $ to sign up for a french class
which i'm going to do as soon as i finish here, and a little mini sewing
machine which i still can't work so well but i'll figure it out eventually.
the grrls are coming up friday so i have to get a plan together for what
we'll be doing. as long as i can dance dance dance! i don't care really.
phred and i won't be celebrating at all together! he's working till 11pm all
week and Saturday night he has a bachelor party to go to. lucky bastard i wanna go
see naked ladies dance too!

arAmat *has short hair now!*

5:51 pm

my birthday is in one week. normally i love my birthday's
i get all my boys together we go out to my favorite restaurant
then i get treated like a queen by 5 guys. this year phred is working
till midnight and lately my boy's haven't been the best at returning
my calls.
doesn't matter.
i'll find fun with or without them.
sometime late thursday night i'll be really high
and dancing with a huge smile on my face.
i'm embracing the final year of my 20's with confidence
and determination to follow my own path. lately i've sidetracked
some of my passions, i can feel them pushing to the surface
on the verge of bursting out.
i think the ladies will be here friday so the party will start all over again.
this will be the first birthday in years that meaghan i will celebrate together.
no matter what i am not going along with her plan to tell people were turning 25,
that's just silly.

decided to go home to the family this weekend. i'm nervous about seeing
my dad. not the seeing him part, but the part about what's going on his life.
i'm sure he'll play the avoidance game as long as possible.
he quit his job last week and wants my help on his resume, i just think that's
so cute. i remember when he used to help me with mine.
Anyway,
still on a mission to get laid.
tired of playing with myself!

arAmat is horny

PS
big hugs to my friend in teXas
i hope your well.

3:33 pm

things seem to be falling nicely into place.


araMaT *is content*

3:42 pm
thanks god its friday!
i woke up at 6:15 am freaking out
that the alarm didn't go off. then i started to
freak out because phred did nothing to help me.
he hasn't done much to help out lately and i can't take more.
again i get home and the place is a mess.
what the fuck does he do till 2pm everyday? probably
sleep...
anyway
i'm tired and stinky. gonna take a shower
and smk a huge dube!
hello sexy office boy! good luck tonight!

aramat

4:42 pm

its a mans world i tell ya.
phred takes the car to one place and they tell him
its free. the part is under warranty.
i get an estimate of $1330 not including labor.
what the fuck?

araMat

3:42 pm

agh!
i just want a big hug.
i want an understanding ear to listen
and not dismiss me.
i want to be taken seriously and just
a chick with nice tits.
fuck! fuck! fuck!
again i'm welcomed home by a pile of
fucking dishes. i really thought i'd get some help
around here this week at least, phred is working
2pm to 10 pm. and still he hasn't taken the car in
or done fuck all around here.
K
that was my rant
my complaints are valid
i really don't think i'm being unreasonable.
OH! and another thing! i want sex! i haven't got
laid in weeks. touching myself is all good
but i NEed more!
aghg!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

araMat


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