11:24 am

so it begins.
this afternoon i go into WORK!
paid WORK. i'm so excited to join the masses
once again....
although i'm having trouble finding something to wear, i guess
once i get paid i'll have to buy some new clothes. only after
i pay all my bills and money to phred. its going to take awhile
to get back on track..
my cute neighbor just lent me her sandals. she's such a sweet lady but
a little nosey. every time i'm outside she's there. she even caught me
sneaking a smoke the other day. she came over and lectured me!
today i'm taking the bus to work. i haven't rode the bus in at least a
year. i'm sure the experience has remained the same, with gas so expensive
and my office right down town where there is no where to park it only
makes sense that i take the bus or walk. its such a lovely day i think i'll walk
home!
my amazing sista in T.O just got her funky earrings into a cute shop on Queen st. i'm so proud of her.
last night i made myself new earrings to wear to work today, new jewelry always makes me feel amazing!
well, i better get myself together. i wanna look good for my work foto!

araMAT *has a job!*

12:21 pm

Wei hui said in Shanghai baby that anything can happen on a wednesday.
i hope so...


araMAT*is a little nervous*

10:42 am

i've been avoiding my blog but not my life.
things are changing, and for the better.
everyday my heart aches for my cousin, i miss
him so much. but i've decided to take a page
from my cousins life and implement it, into mine.
no matter what was going on in his life or in his head
John always approached things with a smile and all of his
effort. i'm striving to be more like him every day.

many things have occurred lately that have made me
examine several aspects of my life. from relationships with
friends, family and my lover phred. its like i've peeled off a
layer of myself to expose a fresher more ME self. i don't really feel like
going into great detail about how i found jesus in my beads and if that
even means anything or about how my father sends me sexist emails when i he knows my major in Uni was women's studies. or his impending court date, or how meaghan and i haven't talked in two months.
none of that i want to examine to closely! not today anyway!
as i write this i can hear my sexy man in the shower. lately we've really
connected sexually and i feel awful for even thinking in my mind that we may have lost what we have. i really must have been at a low point to think ill of us. phred and i are solid. i think i don't want to admit that sometimes.
that makes one thing a definite in my future, my phred! definite things, even good things can be scary sometimes...
anyway,
i need to make my lover a lunch!
araMAT *feels freSH*