9:57 am
there are times when i am convinced that phred doesn't
know me or understand me at all. one of those times was
yesterday afternoon. we bickered over useless and meaningless
things. phred then concluded that i never listen to him and i make
him feel stupid everyday. that not being my intention to make him
or anyone feel stupid i apologized but he was unable or reluctant to
produce an example of how i did so. i hate fighting under any circumstances
but i refuse to be attacked for no apparent reason.
that attitude just sparked more harsh words between us until i
couldn't resist anymore. i relented and let him berate me until he felt
better. i think sitting there so calmly made him more upset but
that part of him that i doesn't know me or understand me kept emerging
and i can't fight that. its that lack of knowing that appears every now and then
that scares me, makes me think that in the long run we might not
be successful in this relationship. phred would accuse me here of being
dramatic and overreacting but deep down i truly believe he doesn't
get who i am.
we have decided to go away next week camping for a few days. to get away from
the constant construction on our street and most importantly phred wants to fish! we
picked a secluded site right on the lake that we have to hike into. i can't wait.
I've been busy beading filling orders as far away as mississauga. i guess 4 hrs away i
sn't very far but i'm happy that's the distance my emails have traveled with pictures of my work.
i guess i should go wake up phred now.
hello s.o.b
your hot!
arAmat